a story from a friend named..... (my new friend)

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today, at 9 am i'll sit for my portfolio management and application final exam
i do pray for my luck
and im stuck in middle of erm... stupidness right now
im scare to face the morning
i dunno what will the paper asking
and mostly my answer toward it
since this is the final semester
i need to keep up for good grade...
now, im disappointed and frustrated with myself
and current grade
*sigh...

ohh...
here the story is
it about a friend story
that pinned my heart lately
as i watch her face
and i keep thinking in mind
it alrite if u wanna called me akak
(as im the oldest among the other)
but is..
the story lying behind
is touching me
and it rotating in my mind..
it being a habit of mine
to watch deep in her face..
why?
i was 25 years old this year
and...
still happily alive and married
smile and experience my surround
as she asking my age
( i keep it secret) :P
and as i said 25
she surprised and with shinig in eyes she said...

oh, umur ko same ngan arwah along aku...

and i was like...
silent.. i dunno what 2 say
and alot thing play in my mind...
and she last request
before heading her home

hey umi, boleh x aku panggil ko kak long?

hah? aku mmg anak sulung pon and mase kat ostel along mmg gelaran aku

she asking as watch my eyes directly and hopefully
and keep calling me kak long.. kak long..
for ur thinking
what does i felt at the moment?
what u'll do?
i was blur and clueless
suddenly...
i try to make a joke
because...........
not to make funny of her
but i cant stand the (maybe)
of what she feeling inside...
at that time..
oh...
i was pity on her
because she have to experience
the death of love at very young age..
it really touch me to the deep
too deep of mine
her kaklong was died at 9 when she was at 6
in a tragic school bus accident..
she used to grew up with her kaklong
but fate to be only 6 years...
hah...
and now, it was strong to feel the missing in my heart..
i miss my sisters and brother..
so much..
too much...