a dad.....

i was shocked...
i just get a text
about
an old man that i've no opportunity to spend my time with
a father to a man, who also called dad...
and he has a wife,
who didn't appreciate his live dad..( i bet u!)
how sad.......
he just back to where he was
to Allah side who love him more...
and can't hold my tears...
i just met this wise old man
a week ago
and it so unbelievable...
the house was full with all his love
all sons and daughter
all love grandchild
by his side
including me and Hunny Bee Vi...
i pray for his peaceful and new journey.....

to his son's wife...
i know her dad had made a mistake
but, just forgive him as a dad
u can't judge a dad
who already done too much in our life
too much sacrifice and tears he hide
to make our life in 1000x better that he was...
a heartache in every time
in our tears and downturn...

life...
is already specified by Him...
i'm scared to think about death
as i was not a very good muslim
and history was hunting me like h*ell....
i could cry...
to think bout love one death...
i dont know how to deal with d situation and i'm scared to down....
what would i was over there...
what is feel about being there?
if i was good muslim
i'll reunite with other muslim spirit and meet our messenger
( i want to!)
what is felt being down 7 feet in earth?
is it lonely...
is it horrified?
o peaceful?

a death of dad
by the time
i don't have chance to make his life better that i was
drain all his tears and sweat
putting a proud smile and hug
sending him to Quran class
and pilgrim and other part of world
giving all heart in world to him
i dunno....
i' so emotional
to think
about
a person called DAD.............